All My Dreams Cant Be Fullfill Anymore....

All because of him,I dont have have my own life anymore,I have to live for him and my lovely daughter,because of him I had to let go all my dreams and my future,all i do now and in future are for him and my daughter.

I dont know who to share now but I think is also not so appropriate to write in here because I dont feel like is good to say it here.

I am really not so happy lo...but I dont know how to fight back and stand out for my own happiness because the day I married to him,all my happiness are rely on him,but I never thought this is what I have to face today,he treated me as what?

Sometimes,i really want to look in deep in his heart and ask him,I am what for him?Slave or wife?

I dont think he treats me as a wife lo,I dont know what is he thinking now,I think he will never see my posts here,he wont understand me at all after I had gave birth to my daughter.

Sometimes,I want to run away and restart a new life in somewhere else as I found he is not loving me anymore like the way he used to love me,he makes me feel he is not the one I should lean on and trust for.

I ever want to try to leave him but everytime I want to,I will give up in the end is because I miss my daughter,I dont want her to be in the dark in the future and I also dont want her to hate me one day in the future as she will think I leave her.

Now,I am the one who stand alone in the dark because he will not care about me anymore,why he had to be like that?

I am giving him so many chances to help him to change the way he lives now and be patience for what he has been doing but did he ever thank me?

I dont know,I just know he hurted me so bad till I dont dare to let my mom knows bout it,because I dont want to worry about me.

I hope there a way out,maybe I really want to give up in this marriage,he is making me losing my faith in him and he always quarrel with me,he is not that carrying anymore,he had hurted me again and again without feeling sorry.

I had lost my faith for him...why he had to be like this???Didnt he feel regretful?

Almost Piah Ding@Fighting

Why? Because that old lady scolded my hubby,that time I was preparing to go out already,I run back to house because I was very angry that moment but my hubby stopped me because we are rushing out to somewhere else,actually I want to scold back again,because she was saying bad words in Foochow and she was facing me,and I thought she was yelling at me so,that's why I was so angry.

If that time wasn't rushing out to do important thing,I will quarrel with her again,so dare she asked my hubby to tell me that I must speak to her first,I said wait long long....I know it's been a week already I didnt talk to her,so what,I didnt fell uncomfortable leh,she was trying to ask money from her son again,I said ask her to wait at the door there,then she will know what I am going to do liao.

Never mind,I will be patient for a while again,I am looking for house to move out,I dont care what she will thinks it's better to stuck in there,right?

There no more better way out beside move out,because there is not a place for human to stay!!!

I will pray for what I am doing is for my own hubby and daughter's good.

Everybody wish me luck and pray for me,ya? Amitabha.....

What to post ho?

Today,I really bo su cho,but I dunno what to post here.Hmm...let me think...really nothing,dont have anything to post bo...maybe all already let go,too many to keep inside so already let out,so nothing to post at the moment,but I will go to peep other people's blog,mana tau,got interesting things to read and see.TA TA...

We went out today

I know is already month of July in chinese calender,this old lady started again,even I didnt talk to her for already 5 days,she called her son and made story like this,'now is month of July,got ghosts!,last night baby cried because u brought her home late!...'My hubby looked at me and said last night I didnt hear baby cry leh,when did she cry?

Apatah lagi,last night we didnt bring her out at all,this old lady is insane already.

I told my hubby,'if she said like that then the ghosts appeared in front of her lo,only she can see ma.'

If she said like that she was irritating 'them',where got people dare to call 'them' like this in this month especially.People always called 'them',good brothers,maybe she is BTC=bo tak chek=tidak pergi sekolah/tidak berpelajaran=not educated.

Last time I asked her ma,whether she got pray or not in this month,she said last time got and now she doesnt want to do so anymore,dah lah orang tua cakap,if you pray,you respect them,and they wont come in to your house to disturb your things especially food.If you find out your rice on the table or in the rice cooker is 'basi'/got sour smell,that's means already touched by 'them' or smelled by 'them',this is my mom told me one,but I really ever experienced this in this house lo,got one time I came home late by myself,that time My hubby was working at night shift,I heard there's sounds like someone in the kitchen searching for food,the plates,bowls,spoons and forks all got sounds,by then I was chun chun thirsty,I went out to take a drink,mana tau,the sounds all went stop,I knew what happened,I show my respect by doing coughing sound,then baru on the light,then I baru dare to go out to drink.Then the next day,that old lady told me all the leftover food and rice in the rice cooker is smelly.Till then,baru I really believed there's such things.

There's no reason to say there's no such things exist,in this house got pictures of their ancestor,of course got spirits in this house especially in this month lo.

I ever suggested them to invite the pictures of their ancestors away to the temple where is suitable for them to place there,but his mom is very stubborn/keras kepala,let her be lo.

According to the experts,if there's pictures of ancestors in the house will make the house's feng shui bad,like if the house members got business,sure will become no business or poor,or it also will affect the health and body,and also cause fights in the house,till there's no peace in the house at the end.

One of the reasons I want to move out also because of this and the structure of this house also cracked,the walls all cracked,the people living in this house also will be harm.

I dont know why his mom is like that lo,no respects at all,her health and my father in law also become weaker and poorer day after day.

My hubby's business and health too.

I hope we three can move out as soon as possible,because this is not kidding,this is a serious matter,not I am very superstitious,I am very care in Feng Shui's matter lo,because Feng Shui is very important things in our life.

Never mind,I will find one day to translate all the real stories happenned in West Malaysia and all were written in the Feng Shui's book which is in chinese version.

There's no loss if we trust this to prevent bad things happens in our daily life right?TO PREVENT IS BETTER THAN CURE!

Cute ler? She didnt forget to smile while I was taking the photo for her,quite cooperate,ha,ha...

This is a group photo of three of us,3 sisters,do we look alike? Guess which one is me? Ha,we got position one oh,on the left in pink is Dai Kar Cheh,the middle one is Sai Mui,and the right one is Yi Kar Cher.

My baby girl is so busy till I cant take her photos properly,I want her to sit still on the chair ,but she just cant be quiet one.