No way I will not coming back to stay in here again

Last Wednesday,I came home busy doing something,then I heard my Hubby said his mom fell down out there,asked me go to see woe,then i go lo,I tot they both are just acting only,then i passed the medication oil to him and asked him to pass to his mom.His mom looks very sad,red eyes with tears,maybe too painful la,I was so worry that she will kneel down in front of me to beg me to move back again,my Mom said cannot let other people to kneel in front of us when they are begging something or what,coz they might make us unlucky,they will take away our luck,so I was so alert for that lo.

Mana tahu,the next day,I brought baby home also,then she suddenly like so sad asking me to move back saying all the things now increased prices,I just walked away,so what?
I thought if I move back also the prices wont decrease ma right?
So I just ignored her,hahaha,my heart so 'song',coz I didnt answer her back.

She never treat me as her daughter in law,she just treated like I m invisible one,so I wont care she is sincere to me anymore.

Not that I m cruel,who asked her to start it first?

Left home for ten days.

Today is the 10th day,Nicole and I left this home,and today I also brought her back here just for this short evening only,although I know is a little cruel for me to separate the distance between the grandparents and the grand daughter,but I really couldn't stand their lifestyle.They didnt really care for their grand daughter when she is around,when I brought her away,she begged me to bring her back,she said till so suffer till she can forgot to pay for the bus fare,I didnt care la,did she ever think of me before?She just bring my daughter away when the first time I brought her home since she was baby just right after I gave birth for two months,she herself want to take care of her,then her own daughter said she looked at her mother getting much older than before,she's like humillating me like I force her to take care,did she ever think of me will be sad for she separated my baby and I?
I asked her back,she cant answer me.
So the final decision is I am going to move out soon once I find suitable house.I hope my wish will come true.

Nicole,Nicole....

Monkey face...

Wooo...

Boo...

Ha,fake smile.

Ok,sit still and be serious.

Ready....

Not like this,adjust again...

Alright,sit properly first.

Hmm...wanna take my pic?

Tired Me

Quite lazy those day for not blogging,didnt have anything to write also la,so far ok kok,only keep busying myself for looking prospects to buy insurance lo,no choice have to make more money to cover living cost.

Today quite happy also coz can went back home to my own mother's house,with my baby,she had a lot of fun there too.

She ate a lot of food there till forgot to drink milk,but at the end she also drink half of it only.

I like to go back to my own mother's there coz can share many many story of my daily life,my mom also helped me to prepare the chinese medicine as consulted by the physician because I was sick in my maternity time so have to drink the medicine to recover my health.

Nothing else to write down at the moment,I also felt sleepy already,got to go to bed now.
Good Nite!

All My Dreams Cant Be Fullfill Anymore....

All because of him,I dont have have my own life anymore,I have to live for him and my lovely daughter,because of him I had to let go all my dreams and my future,all i do now and in future are for him and my daughter.

I dont know who to share now but I think is also not so appropriate to write in here because I dont feel like is good to say it here.

I am really not so happy lo...but I dont know how to fight back and stand out for my own happiness because the day I married to him,all my happiness are rely on him,but I never thought this is what I have to face today,he treated me as what?

Sometimes,i really want to look in deep in his heart and ask him,I am what for him?Slave or wife?

I dont think he treats me as a wife lo,I dont know what is he thinking now,I think he will never see my posts here,he wont understand me at all after I had gave birth to my daughter.

Sometimes,I want to run away and restart a new life in somewhere else as I found he is not loving me anymore like the way he used to love me,he makes me feel he is not the one I should lean on and trust for.

I ever want to try to leave him but everytime I want to,I will give up in the end is because I miss my daughter,I dont want her to be in the dark in the future and I also dont want her to hate me one day in the future as she will think I leave her.

Now,I am the one who stand alone in the dark because he will not care about me anymore,why he had to be like that?

I am giving him so many chances to help him to change the way he lives now and be patience for what he has been doing but did he ever thank me?

I dont know,I just know he hurted me so bad till I dont dare to let my mom knows bout it,because I dont want to worry about me.

I hope there a way out,maybe I really want to give up in this marriage,he is making me losing my faith in him and he always quarrel with me,he is not that carrying anymore,he had hurted me again and again without feeling sorry.

I had lost my faith for him...why he had to be like this???Didnt he feel regretful?

Almost Piah Ding@Fighting

Why? Because that old lady scolded my hubby,that time I was preparing to go out already,I run back to house because I was very angry that moment but my hubby stopped me because we are rushing out to somewhere else,actually I want to scold back again,because she was saying bad words in Foochow and she was facing me,and I thought she was yelling at me so,that's why I was so angry.

If that time wasn't rushing out to do important thing,I will quarrel with her again,so dare she asked my hubby to tell me that I must speak to her first,I said wait long long....I know it's been a week already I didnt talk to her,so what,I didnt fell uncomfortable leh,she was trying to ask money from her son again,I said ask her to wait at the door there,then she will know what I am going to do liao.

Never mind,I will be patient for a while again,I am looking for house to move out,I dont care what she will thinks it's better to stuck in there,right?

There no more better way out beside move out,because there is not a place for human to stay!!!

I will pray for what I am doing is for my own hubby and daughter's good.

Everybody wish me luck and pray for me,ya? Amitabha.....

What to post ho?

Today,I really bo su cho,but I dunno what to post here.Hmm...let me think...really nothing,dont have anything to post bo...maybe all already let go,too many to keep inside so already let out,so nothing to post at the moment,but I will go to peep other people's blog,mana tau,got interesting things to read and see.TA TA...