All because of him,I dont have have my own life anymore,I have to live for him and my lovely daughter,because of him I had to let go all my dreams and my future,all i do now and in future are for him and my daughter.
I dont know who to share now but I think is also not so appropriate to write in here because I dont feel like is good to say it here.
I am really not so happy lo...but I dont know how to fight back and stand out for my own happiness because the day I married to him,all my happiness are rely on him,but I never thought this is what I have to face today,he treated me as what?
Sometimes,i really want to look in deep in his heart and ask him,I am what for him?Slave or wife?
I dont think he treats me as a wife lo,I dont know what is he thinking now,I think he will never see my posts here,he wont understand me at all after I had gave birth to my daughter.
Sometimes,I want to run away and restart a new life in somewhere else as I found he is not loving me anymore like the way he used to love me,he makes me feel he is not the one I should lean on and trust for.
I ever want to try to leave him but everytime I want to,I will give up in the end is because I miss my daughter,I dont want her to be in the dark in the future and I also dont want her to hate me one day in the future as she will think I leave her.
Now,I am the one who stand alone in the dark because he will not care about me anymore,why he had to be like that?
I am giving him so many chances to help him to change the way he lives now and be patience for what he has been doing but did he ever thank me?
I dont know,I just know he hurted me so bad till I dont dare to let my mom knows bout it,because I dont want to worry about me.
I hope there a way out,maybe I really want to give up in this marriage,he is making me losing my faith in him and he always quarrel with me,he is not that carrying anymore,he had hurted me again and again without feeling sorry.
I had lost my faith for him...why he had to be like this???Didnt he feel regretful?
