Sometimes so stressful till cant sleep,now very bored also cant sleep,dunno what's the matter with me.Am i ok?Sometimes have to ask myself are u Jenny?
Insomnia I guess...very suffering ar....I want go home....
Showing posts with label Me Myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Me Myself. Show all posts
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Very Happy
Today,I m happy...I m just happy...that's it,dunno how to describe,maybe I did shared something with my love one today.... :-)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Lonely
Today,I just came out from hospital,My sickness is back again.
I hate myself for facing this type of situation.I am no happy with this lo.
Why I must facing all this?
i am so suffering now can I release this burden?
Why must choose me?
I dont want la,is very horror feeling.
Is not a fever that easy
Is a physotic sickness I tot if I didnt go on take mecidicine,it will be better for me as i can like be other normal people.
Hai Hai,how come my fate is like this.
I hate myself for facing this type of situation.I am no happy with this lo.
Why I must facing all this?
i am so suffering now can I release this burden?
Why must choose me?
I dont want la,is very horror feeling.
Is not a fever that easy
Is a physotic sickness I tot if I didnt go on take mecidicine,it will be better for me as i can like be other normal people.
Hai Hai,how come my fate is like this.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Jenny
Why is Jenny? Oh,Why? Nothing la,Just too long didnt update my blog nia.
Dunno what to write coz already long time didnt write so suddenly become a stranger to myself.
Ha,ha,time flies so fast,till now is month of November already,what have i done in the past 10 months this year 2007?
I also dunno what I have done,I just know like did nothing much just spent a lot of time on my daughter,see her learn to walk,speak,and dance.
I still remember there's one Auntie told me,spending the time looking at our own baby growing up is the most precious moments,so I must appreciate them,so now I have to notice the improvement of my baby girl day by day.
She is a very brilliant baby,she knows what she likes,what she wants,like at night,is bedtime for her,she sure wants me to be with her,she will automatically points at the bedroom,showing me to go to the bedroom to sleep,she will asked me to turn off the light,or will sing song for herself.
Like yesterday,my hubby and I brought her to Hock Lee's centre to play,I remembered her ball at home had burst by her Uncle while playing with her,so I asked my hubby to buy new one for her.
While choosing the ball,the shopkeeper suggested the red ball,but I insisted to choose the blue one,but who knows my baby girl she throwed away the blue one and picked the red one,we all laughed at her,she knows what she likes.
For me,she is also a mature thinking baby,I still remembered there's a time,I was crying coz been bullied by my hubby,she seems to be understands that I was sad,so she went to the room where her dad was in there,she scolded him but her dad didnt know,actually I was so sad one then turns to laughing coz I felt funny...see she was so understanding me,she knows how to pampered me.
Until today,she always sticks to me whenever I go,but if her dad wants to hug her,she will cry wants to be with me,hahaha,so lovely....I have nothing to fear where there's her to be with me.
Though she only knows to say Papa or Daddy,but seldom say Mummy or Mama.
Dunno what to write coz already long time didnt write so suddenly become a stranger to myself.
Ha,ha,time flies so fast,till now is month of November already,what have i done in the past 10 months this year 2007?
I also dunno what I have done,I just know like did nothing much just spent a lot of time on my daughter,see her learn to walk,speak,and dance.
I still remember there's one Auntie told me,spending the time looking at our own baby growing up is the most precious moments,so I must appreciate them,so now I have to notice the improvement of my baby girl day by day.
She is a very brilliant baby,she knows what she likes,what she wants,like at night,is bedtime for her,she sure wants me to be with her,she will automatically points at the bedroom,showing me to go to the bedroom to sleep,she will asked me to turn off the light,or will sing song for herself.
Like yesterday,my hubby and I brought her to Hock Lee's centre to play,I remembered her ball at home had burst by her Uncle while playing with her,so I asked my hubby to buy new one for her.
While choosing the ball,the shopkeeper suggested the red ball,but I insisted to choose the blue one,but who knows my baby girl she throwed away the blue one and picked the red one,we all laughed at her,she knows what she likes.
For me,she is also a mature thinking baby,I still remembered there's a time,I was crying coz been bullied by my hubby,she seems to be understands that I was sad,so she went to the room where her dad was in there,she scolded him but her dad didnt know,actually I was so sad one then turns to laughing coz I felt funny...see she was so understanding me,she knows how to pampered me.
Until today,she always sticks to me whenever I go,but if her dad wants to hug her,she will cry wants to be with me,hahaha,so lovely....I have nothing to fear where there's her to be with me.
Though she only knows to say Papa or Daddy,but seldom say Mummy or Mama.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Tired Me
Quite lazy those day for not blogging,didnt have anything to write also la,so far ok kok,only keep busying myself for looking prospects to buy insurance lo,no choice have to make more money to cover living cost.
Today quite happy also coz can went back home to my own mother's house,with my baby,she had a lot of fun there too.
She ate a lot of food there till forgot to drink milk,but at the end she also drink half of it only.
I like to go back to my own mother's there coz can share many many story of my daily life,my mom also helped me to prepare the chinese medicine as consulted by the physician because I was sick in my maternity time so have to drink the medicine to recover my health.
Nothing else to write down at the moment,I also felt sleepy already,got to go to bed now.
Good Nite!
Today quite happy also coz can went back home to my own mother's house,with my baby,she had a lot of fun there too.
She ate a lot of food there till forgot to drink milk,but at the end she also drink half of it only.
I like to go back to my own mother's there coz can share many many story of my daily life,my mom also helped me to prepare the chinese medicine as consulted by the physician because I was sick in my maternity time so have to drink the medicine to recover my health.
Nothing else to write down at the moment,I also felt sleepy already,got to go to bed now.
Good Nite!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
All My Dreams Cant Be Fullfill Anymore....
All because of him,I dont have have my own life anymore,I have to live for him and my lovely daughter,because of him I had to let go all my dreams and my future,all i do now and in future are for him and my daughter.
I dont know who to share now but I think is also not so appropriate to write in here because I dont feel like is good to say it here.
I am really not so happy lo...but I dont know how to fight back and stand out for my own happiness because the day I married to him,all my happiness are rely on him,but I never thought this is what I have to face today,he treated me as what?
Sometimes,i really want to look in deep in his heart and ask him,I am what for him?Slave or wife?
I dont think he treats me as a wife lo,I dont know what is he thinking now,I think he will never see my posts here,he wont understand me at all after I had gave birth to my daughter.
Sometimes,I want to run away and restart a new life in somewhere else as I found he is not loving me anymore like the way he used to love me,he makes me feel he is not the one I should lean on and trust for.
I ever want to try to leave him but everytime I want to,I will give up in the end is because I miss my daughter,I dont want her to be in the dark in the future and I also dont want her to hate me one day in the future as she will think I leave her.
Now,I am the one who stand alone in the dark because he will not care about me anymore,why he had to be like that?
I am giving him so many chances to help him to change the way he lives now and be patience for what he has been doing but did he ever thank me?
I dont know,I just know he hurted me so bad till I dont dare to let my mom knows bout it,because I dont want to worry about me.
I hope there a way out,maybe I really want to give up in this marriage,he is making me losing my faith in him and he always quarrel with me,he is not that carrying anymore,he had hurted me again and again without feeling sorry.
I had lost my faith for him...why he had to be like this???Didnt he feel regretful?
I dont know who to share now but I think is also not so appropriate to write in here because I dont feel like is good to say it here.
I am really not so happy lo...but I dont know how to fight back and stand out for my own happiness because the day I married to him,all my happiness are rely on him,but I never thought this is what I have to face today,he treated me as what?
Sometimes,i really want to look in deep in his heart and ask him,I am what for him?Slave or wife?
I dont think he treats me as a wife lo,I dont know what is he thinking now,I think he will never see my posts here,he wont understand me at all after I had gave birth to my daughter.
Sometimes,I want to run away and restart a new life in somewhere else as I found he is not loving me anymore like the way he used to love me,he makes me feel he is not the one I should lean on and trust for.
I ever want to try to leave him but everytime I want to,I will give up in the end is because I miss my daughter,I dont want her to be in the dark in the future and I also dont want her to hate me one day in the future as she will think I leave her.
Now,I am the one who stand alone in the dark because he will not care about me anymore,why he had to be like that?
I am giving him so many chances to help him to change the way he lives now and be patience for what he has been doing but did he ever thank me?
I dont know,I just know he hurted me so bad till I dont dare to let my mom knows bout it,because I dont want to worry about me.
I hope there a way out,maybe I really want to give up in this marriage,he is making me losing my faith in him and he always quarrel with me,he is not that carrying anymore,he had hurted me again and again without feeling sorry.
I had lost my faith for him...why he had to be like this???Didnt he feel regretful?
Sunday, August 19, 2007
What to post ho?
Today,I really bo su cho,but I dunno what to post here.Hmm...let me think...really nothing,dont have anything to post bo...maybe all already let go,too many to keep inside so already let out,so nothing to post at the moment,but I will go to peep other people's blog,mana tau,got interesting things to read and see.TA TA...
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